Chasing After Art & Why I Do It

Evening Fishing by Tim Lingley

Evening Fishing by Tim Lingley

I admire and look up to anyone who has left the safety of a 9 to 5 job to pursue their dreams. Many who consider this just have their heads in the clouds, but those who actively pursue it know how difficult it can be. For those who are desperate to get out but don’t know what they’d do if they had the chance, Purpose Fairy writes about Following Your Passion and Finding Your Purpose.

Out of clutter, find simplicity. From discord, find harmony. In the middle of difficulty lies opportunity. ~ Albert Einstein

My drive to pursue art came from the desperation to break the monotonous cycle of my creatively-draining 9 to 5. Some people are already born with the drive they need to reach their goals, and some have to develop it over time.

Much of my life was laid out for me already, so I had no real reason to look at myself and ask what I really wanted. After high school, community college was the obvious choice for me because my program allowed me to live at home, pay super cheap tuition, and almost guaranteed a high-paying job upon graduation. I figured that if I had good money working regular hours, I could do art outside of work whenever I felt like it.

It wasn’t until much later that I started asking myself why I was spending so much of my day doing something that wasn’t fulfilling, something that was actually making me miserable. I’d just assumed that people toiled away a work all day whether they liked to or not, that it was just a part of life.

It was only then that I began asking myself what I really wanted out of life. It’s a hard way to go about it, but at the same time, if I hadn’t come to it this way, maybe I wouldn’t have been driven enough to pursue it to my fullest ability.

But, how do you find your passion and the drive to pursue it? The article starts us off with this:

1. Think about your childhood.

Growing up, drawing was always there from as far back as I can remember. I loved art classes all through school and drew in all the notebooks I had. I even did a painting workshop in middle school and got a radio interview out of it. It’s really encouraging to look back at those notebooks; since I was drawing every day I made a ton of progress and improved a lot, even though I wasn’t really trying.

I had no time for it in college, and that’s when I starting feeling down and out. I’m sure it also had to do with the large amount of stress I was under, but after I started work and settled in, there was still something missing in my life.

Ask yourself, If I had 1 million dollars, how would my life look like and start from there.

Jot down all the things youʼre good at, all the things youʼve ever wanted to do, all the things youʼd do if you could. You donʼt need to be rational here, just write for at least 10 minutes. Try not to let your ego take over. Just let the words roll out.

After making that list, choose one or two items that really stick out at you. Try not to be overly critical in this phase. Honestly ask yourself why you haven’t pursued those things yet. Look into what it would take to achieve those goals. You might be surprised at how easy some of them could be!

On leading a full-time creative life, Spencer Lum tells it like it is:

I can give no insights, I can offer no formulas. There are no promises here. What you get is what you get. But if you’re willing to take a gamble, I’ll bet on you. If you’re willing to put it out there, if you’re willing to fail, if you’re willing to let go of it all, thumb your nose at the world, and do it your way, I’ll believe in you. You may not find what you want, but you’ll find what you need. Want is easily known, but need is a thing that only reveals itself in retrospect.

Following your dreams, particularly in a creative field is not the path of least resistance. It’s not even an option that will get you a lot of support. No one will hold your hand, few will tell you (and actually mean it) that it’s the right thing to do. It’s a humongous test of self-discipline and perseverance.

So if it’s so difficult, why should you pursue it? I can’t answer that for you, I can only answer why I do it.

I left my job and safety net back home to pursue art because of those moments when I’m drawing, or inking, or painting when nothing else exists but the paper or canvas. Putting the brush to canvas, or the pencil to paper, just feels right.  I’d liken it to meditation, finding your center or even touching the divine. It feels like I’m doing what I’ve been made to do. It gives me a deep satisfaction and love for life that few other things do. Even if those moments are fleeting it’s worth chasing after them.

It all boils down to this: If I’m going to be spending the majority of my days and my life working on something, shouldn’t it be something I love and feel good about rather than something I don’t care about, or worse, something that makes me feel bad? Work is work and I’d rather be working towards artistic goals than anything else.

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